Dear Allah,,

I can't sleep well nowadays, and sometimes in the middle of the night, when almost all the people fall asleep and wandering across their dream, I wake up..

At first night I woke up, I didn't know what to do.. I'm just lying in the dark, whispering to disappear, can't face the truth that as the sun rises, it's one day closer to the goodbye..
yup, I was that hurt, I couldn't believe in Allah's plan.. I refuse to believe that Alla's scenario is the best and greatest scenario for every human being..

Then in one night, I wake up, and I decide to get up, and talk directly to Allah.. through Shalat and Dzikir and pray..
I try to talk to Allah in every way that I can, every single way that possible..

I talk to Allah, I told Allah every feeling that I felt, I told Allah every doubt that I have..
I ask  Allah to send me some "power" to face this lonely hurt, to give me more patience in this waiting..

The more I talk to Allah, the clearer this life I see..
The more I talk to Allah, the lighter this heart I carry..

"Hasbunallahu Wa Ni'mal Wakil"

"Cukuplah Allah penolong kami, dan Allah adalah sebaik-baiknya pelindung (QS Al 'Imran : 173)"